new!

Hey bitches. So last night was the first night in my new room at Keat's house. It was good :) Though my room is small, I like it. I need to put more stuff at my dad's apparently lol. Such as this humungo bean bag taking up 90% of my room. bwaha. Anyways I like my room, its dark because I got up at like noon and my room was completely dark its sweet. But anyways, things here are good so far. I like harassing Keatin haha. Also, im so sick of cleaning the other stupid house, thank goodness that'll be done tomorrow. ugh. Anyways that was my update, more later. peace!

-Kelso.

party.

So, I had my party last night. It was okay. I guess I'll go into a little bit more detail. So, it started off Asian got there at like 8 and then Jen and Tyler showed up which was cool. And then some other people including Chels, Martin, Jessie, Braden, Britt & Dino. Then Courtney (my step sister) showed up with 4 of her friends that I didn't know was coming. But that was cool with me, they were just chillin at the beginning. I think they expected it to be some kind of crazy party though, which it wasn't. Then Keat, Chris, Leslie, Mel, Allie & Pat came. Which was sweet. So for a while everyone was just chillin and it was good. But then like.. the people I don't know are like jackin people's booze and hooking up in my room which was NOT cool. I don't deal with that shit. You come into my house, to a party you weren't invited to and disrespect me & my home. no. sorry. I had this party for my friends to come over and chill and have a good time, not for randoms to get hammered and hook up in my room. So I was pissed. Pissed. I went upstairs and freaked the fuck out, swearing and yelling at them to open my friggin door. I don't appreciate that. You know, it was cool that you came, its not a big deal to me if you're just there to chill and have fun. But you don't do that shit here. not a chance in hell. So then Leslie went and told them to leave and they did so it was cool after that. Courtney came back & I talked to her about it and it was a lot of fun just having her there chillin with us. She got along really well with my friends and my cousin when it was just her. So the rest of the party was fun :) Had a good time with my friends & family. Which was sweet. Then most of the people went home, had an emotional conversation with martin & jessie. Which was good because I really needed to talk. I felt much better after, they're always there for me :) But anyways.. So then it was just me, Braden, Courtney & Jessie left and they stayed over which was cool. We slept in the living room, ended up going to bed at 5 or something like that. Then this morning I felt like shit haha. Me, Jessie & Braden just inda chilled in the living room and eventually decided to play Monopoly. Which I owned at in the beginning and then totally lost hahah. Anyways to sum it up it was pretty good, I had fun for the most part :) Hopefully this won't be the last one, though it will be for the next year and a bit. At least if I'm hosting it hehe. Anyways that's it. All in all a good night.

-Kelso.

my house is empty.

So here I am. Sitting in my empty living room. I guess it isn't completely empty.. but I'm the last one here. Mom moved to Chatham today, brother moved out last week. My life for the next 4 days consists of sitting in my basket chair watching a movie on my tiny t.v & eating half of a watermelon. Not gonna lie, its really weird being here alone. Its weird not living with my family.. I don't like it. There isn't anything I can do about it though I guess.. But anyways. Point is, this is crazy weird and upsetting. Maybe watching Chuck & Larry will cheer me up? heh. On a happier note, might hit the beach tomorrow! Depending on the weather and transportation of course. Then my party is on friday, pretty pumped for that. Haha painting my room on saturday (not by choice) and moving on sunday! Action packed week I would say? Yep. But right now there is NOTHING to do here! & nothing to eat. I just played Scene It by myself, I'm that desperate. Sad, I know. hahahah. Anyways.. right now things are complicated. I feel pushed away by the person that I want to be the closest to. That I was the closest to.. Its just frustrating not knowing how someone feels. Everytime I say something, I seem to make them angry.. I don't get it. For those of you who know me, is there something I'm missing? Do I deserve to be treated rudely? Its getting hard to distinguish between what I'm doing wrong and what may be the other person's problem.. really confusing. Throw me some advice if you have some.

-Kelso.

robotic?

I feel like a zombie. I can find no better way to sum up me right now. I quite often find when I'm alone lately I don't think about anything. Or really even think what I'm doing. Sometimes. It sounds crazy when I read that. I find that my brain is "shut off" so to speak. Frozen? It is as if I blinked for a second and everything is upside down. In a few days everything will be different. Or more different than it already has become. Though sometimes I find myself just going through the motions, there are other times where I can't seem to stop my mind from thinking. Its frustrating. I find it easier to not think about things as much when I see people. Mainly Brittny. I've continued to ignore everything.. which is very unhealthy. I think everything is a bit surreal at the moment. I don't how I feel about it. As I said before, I feel zombie-like. I need to find a way out of this slump. Somebody take me on a vacation? Ha. That was funny, I know. ;) Anyways. Any advice? I know I could use it.

-Kelso.

happy father's day!

So first off, happy father's day everyone :) Or i guess all you dads out there. maybe not women and children.. anyways. Hope your day is going awesome so far? On top of today being father's day, it is also my dad's birthday. So last night i spent some time making him beer cake (best cake ever). However when it was finished, I just wanted to eat it; and since I wasn't allowed, I have decided to make another one. Right now. ahh yes. Should be good. I'm feeling good today. Have to do some more packing considering I move in a week! I'm not really sure how I feel about it anymore. I'm excited but at the same time, I don't want to live away from my mom yet. She's moving to Chatham and I'm really going to miss my house.. that we moved into 8 months ago. Grr. My life happens to be a tornado right now but today I'm feeling good. Beer cake should cheer me up haha. Also, yesterday I went to a cancer fundraiser thing at the Dawghouse. My dad shaved his head haha he is as bald as a cue ball at the moment. It was good times haha. I got to shave some of his hair which was sweet, Courtney went crazy with the shaving lol. Anyways, so it was good. Met lots of people, ate poutine. haha. If you're interested, you could check out my pictures from yesterday on my facebook. =] Anyways, gotta make more beer cake. Happy Father's Day!

-Kelso.

the good stuff!

Just thought I'd share some of my favourite songs with you :)
I'll continue to add to this list.

* Stop Crying Your Heart Out- Oasis
* Stand By Me- Ben E. King
* Blackbird- The Beatles
* Wherever You Will Go- The Calling
* Fix You- Coldplay
* Your Guardian Angel- The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
* Happiness- The Fray
* Breakeven- The Script
* Vindicated- Dashboard Confessional
* What Sarah Said- Death Cab For Cutie
* Everlong- The Foo Fighters
* The Funeral- Band of Horses
* Clumsy- Our Lady Peace
* I'm Gunna Be- The Proclaimers
* So Far Away- Staind
* New American Classic- Taking Back Sunday
* Joy To The World- Three Dog Night
* Forever Young- The Youth Group
* Everyday People- Sly and the Family Stone
* I'll Be- Edwin McCain
* Free Fallin'- Tom Petty

Check em' out! More later ;)

how rude.

I just don't get why people are so rude to eachother. Seriously, why? I'm tired of living in a world where people get so much satisfaction out of making other people miserable or feel bad about themselves. Who do you think you are? Really. How did we get to this point? Where everything is about image or being cool or just hating on people because you can. Just stop. Honestly enough is enough. I see all these people that talk shit out of nowhere and judge people because they live their life in a different way. Who fucking cares, honestly. Give it a rest. Just let them be happy, make their own mistakes.. or don't make mistakes. Who are we to tell one another what a mistake is? What is a mistake? Is there even an answer to that.. What makes things right or wrong? Nothing. Its people that make it so. So really what is there to hate over? Make fun of people for? Its pathetic. SO pathetic. All I want is for people to be nice to one another, empathetic, or understanding. And its sad that most of you that read that will think that sounds crazy. Think about it, seriously. What is the point in any of it? What good does it do. None. Absolutely nothing. But yet, we seem to get satisfaction out of it. We continue to do it. I hate it. If you have an opinion then fine, state your opinion. Doing so doesn't require rudeness and hate. Or because someone doesn't look like everyone else, dress like everyone else, act like everyone else. That means that they deserve to be made fun of? Hated? No. Didn't think so. Get a life. People just need to be happy. Let it go, chill. Throw away the negative and the pessimism. No one deserves to be treated like shit. I'm so sick of it, honestly. I don't want those people in my life. At all. Getting into huge topics, its the same with racism, prejudiced etc etc. Seriously.. why? WHY. I really don't understand it at all. Is it just me that wants peace and happiness? Feels sorrow when people are treated this way? I sure as hell hope not.

-Kelso.

Afterthought: Its the same with music. Theres a ton of different kinds of music. If you like certain kinds then fine. But don't go forcing your preferences on other people. Or judging them based on what kind of music they like. Personally, my music has a huge variety. From Toby Keith to ACDC to Jay Z to Beethoven to Annotations of an Autopsy to The Beatles to Katy Perry etc etc. Who cares? You like what you like. It doesn't make you any better or worse than anyone else. For all you people who walk around like you're so cool because you have a "good taste" in music, get over yourself.

hi.

Okay, so first blog. I figured it'd be a good idea to start one of these. Good place to rant? I hope. Anyways, I'm not writing much right now. Watching Harry Potter is priority at the moment. haha. Don't judge me. I'll write something more interesting next time, promise.

-Kelso.