Re-cap.

Alright, so it has been a little while! I've been working and what not, I usually just forget to write in this. So I'll do a little re-cap of the last little while for you. Since last time, my brother and I have made up. I decided the whole fighting thing was just so dumb and such a huge waste of time so that's done with, which is a huge relief. I've also gotten rid of my cat, which is also a huge relief. It was hard to let her go but I just couldn't have her here. Things are much better at home now with my roommates allergies and all the stress with my landlord so that's pretty awesome. What else.. nothing really exciting.. Maybe I'll just ramble about some things for a bit. I've realized lately that I have attached myself to my roommates. I don't know if that's a bad thing or not but right now I don't think it is.. I just love being at home. They just always seem to make me feel better about things that are bothering me.. and we're like a little family. We're pretty cute. haha. But point being, I'm really glad I am where I am and that I've met the people I've met. It's also christmas time, which has made me think of a few things. First being, since I have absolutely no money for christmas, I have realized how much this holiday really revolves around gifts. I honestly never really noticed as much as I do now & it's ridiculous. I'm not against the whole gift idea, but people go waaayyy over board with it. I feel like people should be more concerned with just enjoying the company of friends and family than buying/receiving gifts. I don't know.. it just kind of blows my mind how much this holiday is about spending money to make people happy. I just do not understand that at all. I'm honestly so excited just to have dinner with my family and see them all again. Oh, and all the pretty lights. I like that too :) Okay, moving on. My second point. This is going to be my first christmas on my own. Well, last year I lived with Keatin's family, not my own. However, thiiisss year I live with just me and my roommates. One of them hates christmas so I don't think we'll be setting up a tree, meaning this is my first year without a tree at home. Weird. I miss having christmas at home with my family. On one end, I love living on my own and stuff but at the same time sometimes all I want is to rewind 2 years ago, living with my mom and my brother. I miss my old house. But anyways.. I'm excited to go home, well.. to my mom's house in chatham, for a few days. That'll be a nice break away from Londontown. I don't really know what else to talk about right now honestly.. I started getting restless and now my brain just won't function for me so I think this is the end. Hopefully I don't forget to write again soon!

-Kelso.

confusion.

So since my lovely brother ditched my cat on me over a month ago, he still has not talked to me.
It just feels so good when your brother & best friend doesn't even care. I'm honestly so tired of this shit. So tired. Why can't people just grow the fuck up? I'm not getting into the whole story about the cat. I'm too tired for that and really kinda sick of talking about it. Point being, he doesn't talk to me and apparently doesn't care enough to try and fix this. Which is unfortunate because not having him is killing me. I'm sick of dealing with his bullshit though. It feels awful to be unimportant to your own brother. If I am important, he has a hell of a way of showing it. I can't deal with it anymore. There's just so much shit going on in my life right now I don't need this crap. I have a huge financial pile up, work full time, shit with a friend of mine, being away from my family, this stupid issue with him.. im just over it. I just need to be away. Solitary. Somewhere quiet. I don't know what to do. I'm debating moving away. I don't think that would solve anything though.. if anything I may make things worse for myself but who knows. Even being at home stresses me out.. theres no equal effort into cleaning here. Giulia and I clean up all the time.. its getting really frustrating. I need my own place. My own space with my own stuff. Not that I don't like the people here its just frustrating.. I don't know. Anyways. I wonder if what I write about is even interesting to anyone. Probably not. It probably just sounds like me whining and bitching about a lot of things. I don't really care, honestly. It makes me feel better when I write about stuff I'm frustrated about. So if it annoyes.. annoys.. i dunno. if it annoys you please go away. Moving on. I don't really know what to write about tonight.. there is so much going through my head but Its kind of personal to write about, so i'll save you the details. Tonight I've been thinking about my uncle who passed away almost a year ago. It doesn't seem like a year.. but it almost has been. I still don't think its gotten to me. I feel like I keep ignoring it and pushing it away. I want to go visit the cemetary but im afraid of coming to that realization. Not that I haven't been upset or anything like that but it still feels weird. Like it isn't real. I don't know, that sounds weird to say. I was talking to my roommate and I told her it feels as if it happened to someone else. I miss him all the time but I dunno.. its hard to explain. I don't know why im rambling about this but my point is I've been thinking a lot about it and I've been wanting to go visit. Everytime I plan to go though I just don't. I think I'm honestly afraid. Has anyone else ever felt like this? I feel like I'm crazy. I dunno.. I just want my life to make sense and nothing, NOTHING, makes sense right now. I'm drowning in my own thoughts and problems and I don't know how to get out of it. anyways, its bed time so ill write more in a few days. Night.

-Kelso.

train of thought.

What is going on with me? I seem to have lost sight of what is important. Lately I've felt so alone and unhappy and I don't know why. Today, about ten minutes ago, I was sitting on my bed- and still am, I suppose- when I realized that I have no reason to be upset. Things are confusing right now and I don't know how I feel about a few things but I don't think I should be choosing to be upset. I just realized a few minutes ago that I'm wasting my energy being unhappy. So, as of now I am choosing to stop worrying so much about the things that are difficult right now. You guys, whoever is reading this, are probably sitting there thinking I'm pretty strange. If not, then thank you haha. But my point is, I know so many people that are constantly thinking bad thoughts or thinking things suck. This frustrates me to no end. I just feel like people sit and complain about everything that they're dealing with and everything that "sucks" and don't think about everything they have that is amazing or how the things they deal with can be used as an advantage. I feel like I'm an optimist. Yes? Maybe? I don't know. I just think a lot of people don't think about all the good things they have. I've dealt with a fair bit in the last year and I know its hard to change your way of thinking when you're going through bullshit but I'm honestly so happy that I did. I just see things so much differently than I did before. But to go back to my first sentence, the last little while I have kind of been confused about who I am. I went camping with some of my favourite people this past weekend and that was amazing. It helped me remember who I am quite a bit. Yesterday however there were a few events that have confused me. I feel like I don't give myself enough credit. I find myself criticizing (sorry I spelled that wrong) myself more often than not. It only occurred to me the other day when someone told me things about me that I thought the opposite about. Maybe I just need more confidence? Its hard. I don't know. For the last little while I've been secretly looking for something to help me figure myself out. What this something is, I am unsure. Maybe a trip, a person, a place, and experience? I have no idea but I think my camping trip was the beginning of something thats going to help me figure that out. Who knows though, maybe I'm crazy. I think I'm kind of rambling.. my thoughts all just kind of explode in an unorganized fashion when I write in this blog. I can start with one topic and by the middle and the end, I've talked about 20 different things that are unrelated. Don't mind me, I'm just confusing sometimes. Anyways, a few people have told me how good of a person I am and how nice and kind and fun I am. I don't see myself the way they do. Why is this? I'd like to figure out why people don't generally see themselves the same way as others do. Does this mean that we're kind of blind to ourselves? Maybe we never really figure out parts of our personality because what we see is different than what others see. Maybe the other people are right? Does any of this make sense? I think, on some level, what other people see in you is how you are. Obviously not in every way but in some way or another. Maybe we just don't appreciate ourselves enough or maybe we think its being vain to tell ourselves- "I am a good person, I'm selfless and kind, helpful and empathetic". I don't find that vain. Maybe we can't say this about ourselves because we all know something about ourselves that no one else does. Something that could be considered bad. I think mistakes are okay. Even if its a pretty big mistake. I think its a learning opportunity, something to grow from. These experiences make us who we are, they shape us. So yes, you may have fucked up but there's a reason it happened, whatever it may be. Recently I have felt like I have fucked up. Well, I have. But I'm undecided about whether or not I regret it. I don't think I should. I feel like you shouldn't have to regret things because at one time it was what you wanted, right? I think its important to act on how you feel. It may not always be a good thing to do but if you don't I think that would cause more regret than actually doing what you did. On an unrelated note, I don't know what I am doing with my life. For most people this is not okay, scary even. Right now though, I feel like that is okay. I don't think I want a plan for my life. Excluding a few things of course like a family or a job or a house. I don't want a timeline or a list of goals. I want to go with the flow. Does that sounds weird? I dont want to be robotic, going through life in stages, doing the same thing as everyone else. Sometimes I get scared about how much time I've wasted, but then I stop and think about why I think I've wasted it and realize I really haven't wasted it at all. I have wasted a lot of money, yes. But I think that the time I've spent figuring things out and screwing things up has been necessary to learning more about myself and what I do and do not want. Obstacles are important. I've fallen so many times, the important part is to pick yourself back up. That is the key. As long as you can do that, you're golden. Anyways, that is probably enough rambling for today.

-Kelso.

smiles.

best friend.

I just don't understand how someone can tell you that you're so important to them and you're their best friend, but yet treat you the shittiest out of everyone they are friends with. I don't care if it's because you're comfortable with me.. I'm there for you 24/7 whenever you need it. I've helped you through so much crap and would drop everything if you needed me. Then you turn around and tell me I don't care about you. That I treat you like everyone else and I write you off. You know how much that hurts me? You telling me how much I don't care when I care more about your well-being than my own. Why, because I get upset with you and your stupid dramatic crap? Everything I say is an issue.. I feel so unappreciated. Unimportant. You're different and I don't like it. You don't talk to me about anything anymore and you tell me it's my fault because I "get upset about everything you say". Bullshit. I get upset with your rudeness in telling your feelings. I get upset when you don't care about my opinion, when you're only thinking about how you feel. It's not what you're telling me that gets me upset, its your attitude. I don't appreciate being talked to however you feel like talking to me. Its not fair. You're my best friend.. but you treat me like I'm not important. If you care so much about me why do you not care about how you talk to me? I'm just really upset. I feel like I'm going through all the bull-shit from last year. I feel forgotten. I feel like everytime I talk, you don't hear anything I say. You'll probably read this and you'll probably be upset about it. I hope not. Just so you know, I'm not saying that's how you are all the time. But lately, that's how I feel.

-Kelso.

"music is my life".

I am seriously so annoyed with music right now. Everything on the radio/mainstream music is almost all garbage. Its all the same crap. Its absolutely ridiculous how shitty music has become. Why are all the good artists never recognized? I admit I tend to listen to shitty ass music mainly because I like the beat of it but the lyrics are just awful. All it is is "damn girl shake dat ass" or "all da hoes up on my ride, I gettin papeerrr". Seriously what the fuck is that crap. There are SO many songs like that Its awful. The artists on the radio and tv have new songs out all the time, new albums, more money. Thats all it is now. Its just about fame, money, fans.. not the actual music. What happened to that? For example, Ke$ha. Notice the dollar sign (what the fuck). You are not a musician. I'm sorry but all you do is sing talk and put a catchy beat in the background. All your songs sound the same and all you sing about is being drunk, dancing, and guys "wanting you". I really do NOT understand how SO many people LOVE HER. She has no talent and is absolutely repulsive. I hate how people call that crap music. I seriously do not understand. There hundres of new "artists" and songs out all the time. Most of which have the same kind of lyrics and beat as every other damn song on the stupid radio. Lets all sing about being in the club, sleepin with bitches, havin money, being sexy and missing your boyfriend. You know, because its so popular. Thats all it is is a popularity contest. Someone sings about one thing, 100 other songs come out that are about the same thing. SO ANNOYING. Be original like.. you have no passion for music its just about being famous. Alright, I'm done ranting about this.

Also, biggest pet peeve: "yeah music is my life" NO IT ISN'T. You understand nothing about music. Just because you listen to music all the time or it helps you when you're upset does NOT make music your life so stop saying that. UGH.

-Kelso.

things i don't understand.

I'm going through this thing right now where I just am unsure about everything. Well, most things. Sometimes I find that I don't understand myself. Does that make sense? I don't know what I want. Lately I've just felt kind of alone even though I'm not alone at all. I dunno. I kinda feel like I'm losing my best-friends. It just kind of seems like I'm not really important, or that I'm enjoyable to hang out with. Am I like that? Maybe I just suck to be around, I dunno. It sucks feeling like you care significantly more about your best friends than they do about you. Specially when you've been friends for so long. I feel like I'm on the same level as all of their other friends and I don't like that. Is that weird? Or selfish.. or wrong..? I just hate the feeling of.. I don't even know what this feeling is honestly.. Ugh. I just really don't understand why I feel the way I do about a lot of things. Like there are some things I just generally know are fucking crazy of me to think or feel. I just don't understand myself right now. I feel like I've been looking for someone to attach myself to.. not necessarily as a relationship but just as a friend or someone to distract me or help me or something I don't even know what. I have a huge wall up. I find myself constantly pushing people away when they get too close. I've been pushing everything down and ignoring everything its just stressful and hard to deal with. My life has changed so drastically in the last year and I feel that I've gone so far but right now I just don't know where I am. I mean, I know I'm happy with where I live and who I'm friends with and I'm generally happy with myself in most areas.. I think.. but there is something I can't figure out and I have no idea what it is. I think I just need someone that will listen and really care about my problems and well being. Someone that doesn't mind if I share personal things with or sob forever about something that is bothering me. Maybe that's what I'm missing. I just don't feel comfortable enough to talk to anyone about anything mainly because I'm afraid of being annoying or that they won't care or something. I don't know. This probably all sounds so stupid to anyone that is reading this. I just needed to write about all this junk so I'm sorry if this sounds ridiculous. Anyways, I don't know what I'm looking for. I really just wish things could be easy like before. Not even that long ago. Maybe just before boyfriends or highschool or finances.. I wish I could just randomly go hangout with my best friends whenever I wanted to. I think that's what I miss more than anything. Not even the no responsibility thing.. just not worrying about stupid things like boys and drama. I just want my life back in order. I shouldn't be dwelling on the past as much as I do, I know it doesn't do me any good but I can't help it. I can't let go of anything. I'm so afraid of losing everything that is important to me. Everything in this past year has made me stronger but at the same time I find myself 10x more defensive when it comes to people. I don't want to get hurt but like.. I'm kinda screwing myself over by not letting anybody get close to me. I'm probably causing my own problem. Well I am. Its not a question. I just wish I could understand what that problem is. I dunno. I've done enough blabbing about things that don't make sense. Thanks for reading if you got this far.

-Kelso.

:@

My annoyance for today and the last while has been my cat. By MY cat, I mean my FAMILY'S cat. But for some stupid reason they seem to think it is only MY cat. Therefor WILL NOT help me with fuck all. To catch you up, I can't have my cat where I live. Yes my brother has watched it for the past little while but not only did I have to BEG him to take "my" cat, but he has of recently told me that if I, ME, do not find a home for it, he's putting it outside. Now, this really pisses me off because my family seems to think it is solely my fucking responsibility to find the cat a home, pay for it and be responsible for it. May I remind you, family, that WE got this cat 15 years ago, when I was 6 might I add. I'm also pretty sure that for those 15 years, we called it OUR cat. NOT KELSIE'S CAT. So, I don't really understand why I am being blamed for the cat not having a home, I am the only one that fucking cares about it. I don't understand why people are so fucking concerned only about themselves. No, I do not deserve rude messages about how the cat has to go. Thanks for helping me out. Really. Thank you for being rude. Just because all of you decided to just disappear on your own and leave me with the fucking cat just because you didn't want it does NOT mean that is only my fucking responsibility. How about some fucking help instead of just telling me "you need to find a home for it. you need to do this you need to do that." Fucking hell. I'm tired of being around people that only friggin care about themselves.

If you are reading this, I need a home for "my" cat apparently. Please help me out.

-Kelso.

oh, bother.

For those of you that do not know how to spell.

their, they're, there: choose the right one. please. seriously.

right. NOT rite.

through. NOT thru.

you. NOT u. UGGGHHHH

witH. NOT wit. :@:@:@

your, you're: they are not inter-changeable.

to, too, two: again, there is a difference.



this list will become longer. grammar is my pet peeve. grr.

birthdays.

Last weekend, I went to Allie's birthday kegger.. keggar.. keg..r.. KEG in Peterborough! Mel, Pat, Kemp, Mark, Amanda and I drove down Saturday morning. Kemp and Mark had snuggle scissor time in the back haha. Car ride involved a lot of sleeping and music time. We got there and chilled for a bit then went to Whistle Stop where I had the best sandwich (is that spelt wrong..? it looks awful.. my bad if it is) of my life. chicken, bacon feta on some kind of awesome bun that i dont know what it's called but it was delicious! We went to the grocery store to get dinner stuff and Katie & I went on a snack food rampage and got bagel bites! and dunkaroos! and lots of yummy things. So we made chicken tacos for dinner. By we, I mean the boys made it haha. Later we went to get the keg and they apparently sold her keg! So they gave her three smaller ones for the same price and it ended up being 2L extra of beer. Score. So keg time. We played pyramid and kings. We turned the Kings in Kings into keg stands lol. Katie got dropped! annnddd I knocked a full cup of beer all over the front of Allie. Oh jeez.. It happened in slow motion too it was like a wave of beer it was hilarious but I felt awful. Anywho, I met a buncha cool people and what not. In the morning we had morning beers lol and the sweetest waffles ever thanks to the boys once again. Then we all hung out in the living room and chatted about some funny stuff haha. Good times. We stopped at BK and Mac's on the way out of town where I got meat sticks and we all got slushies. mmmmm. Also, mark and kemp snuggled again in the back. We sung backstreet boys and dixie chicks on the way home. It was funny haha. So that was the trip in a nutshell. Since then not much has happened. Well, thursday Clara took my shift because I felt shitty so I went home and slept then ended up going to Molly's with jen for a beer.. or four.. and food. Good times :) Uhh.. worked some more.. then Allie came down for the weekend for kemp's birthday (happy birthday loser!) and Mel's show! Which was pretty awesome might I add! Got to spend time with my Allie yay! Then today, being Monday, I slept in till 1 mmmmm. Then got up and showered and met my brother for beers at Outback and then hung out with my mom cause she was in town and I got to see my maui (L) We went to grandmas for my aunts birthday and had the most massive cake ever it was delicious! :) So I got to see my ma and puppy tonight which was nice. Anywho, So that's been my week! BYE.

-Kelso.

oh!

So guys, it's been a good month since I've wrote anything. I guess I just don't really have much to talk about at the moment; or if I do, I forget to write about it lol. Sorry. So I guess I'll just.. talk.. about.. random stuff. First off, I've been staying at Keatin's house for a few day, I'll be here for another week. His family went to Florida and he had a kind of incident, I suppose. So, I'm staying with him to make sure everything is alright & to help him walk the army of little dogs. haha. Paid off my visa yeye. Just a random note. Also paid off my phone and got it reconnected which is awesome. Made cupcakes that are delicious lol. Uhm.. nothing really is going on I don't think. OH. I get to go to Peterborough next weekend to see Allie for her birthday! Keggerrrr yay haha. That should be fun though, I'm pretty pumped. It'll be nice to get out of London AND see Allie since I miss her quite a bit. I think from now on I'm gonna try to write on here like.. twice a week at LEAST. Even if it's the most random thing ever haha. Maybe I'll post some favourite photos, videos or quotes or something along those lines. Hmmm. Oh, I also have a Tumblr where I post things, though I post on there even less than here haha. But I have different stuff on there so you should check it out, I think. Here, I'll give you the link.

http://kgrimey.tumblr.com/

There it is. Now go. ;)

Anyways, I have nothing really specific to talk about so I'm just going to blab about nothing. Well, I just bought Big Bang Theory season 1,2 & 3 at walmart yesterday. All on sale for $18 each. Friggin sweet, I know. It's pretty much my favourite show, it's hilarious. If you've never watched it, DO IT NOW. hahahaha just laughed out loud thinking about it. Oh man. But yeah. Bought that and some movies yesterday along with new headphones and batteries for my laptop mouse. Also just bought a poster online from the oatmeal, if you know what that is. If you don't know what it is, you should check that out too! The comics are pretty awesome and funny hahah.

www.theoatmeal.com

GO. haha. So I bought a poster of the "How everything goes to hell during a zombie apocolypse" poster. Pretty sweet. Also bought some industrial bars and a nose ring online from bodyartforms.com. Also pretty sweet! Though they won't be here for 3-4 weeks blah. But the one is AWESOME. One of the industrial bars has a treble clef in the middle. Yes, I am a nerd. I also plan on saving and buying a DSLR camera. No, I'm not trying to be all "photog". I would just like something that takes good photos. So that will be pretty cool whenever I am able to buy that. Hopefully I'll have it before summer, that would be awesome. Oh! I get to go to Chicago in August. Pretty pumped for that too. :) Hmm.. Well.. what else.. I'm going to give you a small list of things I think are awesome.

1. Hugging trees. Such a good feeling.
2. Bubble Wrap dresses.
3. Epic Meal Time. yes.
4. Being able to be yourself.
5. Food. simply food. I like to eat.
6. More awesome stuff I can't think of right now.

That was a lame list. I'm done blabbing. Pce y'all.

-Kelso

valentines.

This post is about valentine's. In case you didn't notice.. Anyways. Valentine's Day! How cute. How many of you absolutely love valentine's? Personally, right now I'm bitter about it, honestly. The perspective on this day is like night and day, obviously depending on your relationship status. I'm kind of on the fence. For example, right now I hate the fucking day. Pardon my french. I'm sure though, if I were to be spending it with someone I love I would feel differently. However, either way, I feel like this day is way over-rated. I mean yes, it is a lovely day if you are in a relationship. It's a day to kind of show the person you care about how much you actually care about them just a little more than usual. You can spend the day doing cute things together etc etc. If you're single though, it's kind of a slap in the face. Unless you're one of those "oh I'm so happy for all the people in happy relationships!" kind of people. You make me want to slap you. Let's celebrate being in awesome relationships and rub it in single peoples' faces yaaaayy. Okay, I'm really not that pessimistic, honestly. I've just learned that it generally is no fun being single on valentine's. I'm not saying that people in relationships should feel bad for celebrating this day. I just think that society has made this day into a much bigger thing than it should be. I mean, the way it's talked about makes it seem like Christmas! Why? If you need a special day to tell the people you care about that you love them, there is something wrong. There is definitely something wrong with that picture. Anyways, what I'm saying is. Being single, it is rubbed in our faces, I think. Everywhere you look there valentine's crap. What is that? Isn't valentine's day supposed to be some day that you just spend together and what not? It's s commercial now. So many couple's go out and spend tons and tons of money for their significant other on valentine's. WHY?! WHHHYYY. Why must we feel like we should buy presents on a day that celebrates love? That's actually awful, I think. Are we saying that to show love we must buy presents? Go to a store and buy something that says "i love you" to tell each other our feelings? Presents mean shit all. At least store bought ones. I'm all for home-made ones that are from the heart. But seriously, why is a day of "love" celebrated by this huge display of gifts? Pink and red everything.. gross. It discusts me honestly. Not the idea of valentine's. I actually like valentine's, as much as it seems like I don't. What I don't like is this idea of gifts and store bought things. That's what is so awful for single people. Everywhere you look it's everything hearts and "i love you"'s. All the crap people buy to tell someone they care. I like the idea of a day to celebrate your love for one another it's just, why must it be made out to be so huge and important? Congrats to those of you with boyfriends and girlfriends, I sincerely hope your valentine's day is wonderful & that you don't go out and spend $100 to tell them you love them. Maybe we should celebrate being single on valentine's? Why isn't there a day to celebrate being single? Wouldn't that make sense? Considering the vast majority of singles just get shit faced on valentine's haha. Anyways, that's how I see it. Happy valentine's in three days guys.

-Kelso.

update.

Hi! It's been a little while. I'm just going to write about everything that has been going on lately. Even though it's not really a lot, just a catch-up I suppose! So since last time, I have moved into my new place. I'm renting a room in a student house with 6 other people. It's pretty sweet, my roommates are cool and I must admit, I enjoy having my own space and doing my own thing. It's awesome. There's a lot for me to get used to though, I don't quite get how things work around here yet haha. Though I'm pretty sure everyone is pretty easy going. But other than moving, not much has been happening. Working all the time, exhausting myself haha. My birthday is coming, we're having a thing for it yaaayyy. But that's all. Uh.. my friend's show is on the weekend.. lol. I don't know what else I have to tell you, actually haha. I guess I'll just have to come back and write something more when I think of it haha.

-Kelso.

doctors.

Today, I was walking and talking with a friend and started to get very upset about this particular topic. By very upset I mean irritated and kind of sad. The topic was.. well, it really wasn't a topic it just happened to be part of the conversation. Anyways, what we were talking about included the fact that it has been said (by apparently Dr.Phil, some books and other random, well-known people) that a person's future can be judged based on their past. This issue really makes me mad. Personally, I think this is the most ridiculous thing ever. I also think the people that say things such as this are very ignorant. Who are we to say how another person's life will be like solely based on what happened years ago? It is unfair to say that because someone, for example, has done drugs or cheated, that they will, in the future, fall back on those things. Why is it assumed that because someone has made a bad decision or used to have certain characteristics, that they will always be that way? People change. People always change. No matter what. Its inevitable. It may not always be in a good way, but people will change. Whichever way they change though, it makes their future different from their past. Say, for example, someone were to not have a job, is lazy and is an alcoholic. Does that mean that there future is going nowhere? Is Dr.Phil, who might I add has a "doctor" title, saying that this person will always and forever be lazy? Sorry, Dr.Phil but I think you are an idiot. These people who call themselves doctors with their research and their fancy ideas, they think they know everything. Wrong. No one can judge, or even has the right to think they can judge, someones future. Its absurd. I really hate how people think they know so much about something that is nearly impossible to know anything about. At least that is my opinion. You can't tell the future. Sure maybe the weather.. or.. I don't even know what else. Even the weather people are wrong. Who do you think you are saying how a person is going to end up based on things they have done? I don't believe in the "once a cheater, always a cheater" thing. People make mistakes, its a part of life. People choose lifestyles that may have not been the best choice but who are we to judge? What makes our choices right and theirs wrong? Even if they picked the "wrong" choice, according to society, what says that they can't turn that around and change their life? I really don't understand why they think someone's life can be based on their past. I'm not saying it doesn't affect their future, of course it does. However, that doesn't mean that assumptions can be made. We sit here and think we can judge others based on their decisions and choices. We can't. Decisions and choices aren't right or wrong, they're just different. If I choose not to go to school, that's my choice. If I choose to drink or do drugs or spend my life doing life-threatening things, that's my choice. If you choose to get into a career or have a family, that's YOUR choice. Neither one is right or wrong. How we choose to spend our time, and essentially our lives, is up to us. We're the one's that have to die when it's our time, not anyone else. So why do we think we are SO high and mighty looking down on other people based on what they have chose with THEIR life? Why? I don't know. It makes me so mad sitting here thinking about how ignorant we all are. Every single one of is. Ignorant. Also, when someone makes a "bad" decision, they can learn from it. Of course, whether they do or not is completely up to them, but they can. I just think it's so wrong to say that we can tell someone's future based on things that have happened in the past. The past is the past. It's done. You move on. That's what life is, a series of experiences and lessons. We learn from mistakes, or make them until we eventually learn. We all live life differently and more people need to accept that. We each are individuals. We are our own person. Anyways.. that might be it for now. I feel like I've exhausted my point. But I'm sure I'll write more later.

-Kelso.

addition.

Also, kind of related to this topic, happiness. I hear so many people complaining about their life and how they are unhappy. I'm sorry but I think that's your own fault. I mean it. This is how I see it. We all go through shitty things, some more than others, but how those things affect you is your own decision. Yes, I know it's hard to deal with the tough stuff. I've been there. But in the end, whether we are happy or not boils down to whether you CHOOSE to be happy. You can let those things you go through bring you down and ruin you, or you can use your experience as a lesson, make use of your suffering. Use it to build your character and make you a stronger person. It's all about your view on everything. That's it. Happiness doesn't come in or out of our lives. Its a decision. You have to do it for yourself. In the end, you're the one that provides your own happiness. Not anyone or anything else. People may make you happy, yes, but how you choose to react to people and situations is all you. My point is, stop wallowing in your own pity and complaining about how shitty everything is. Change it. You have the power to make it different. You just have to change your view. Say to yourself "you know what, I deserve better than this. I don't need to be miserable". Think of all the ways whatever it is that you're going through has helped you grow, made you see things differently, or made you appreciate the little things. That's all there is to it. A choice. You just have to make the decision.

let go.

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We attach ourselves to things that we have accumulated over the years. Some of them might have some practical value. Others we just have attached ourselves sentimentally to over time. Some others are just clutter.

Our mental life follows the same fate. We carry with us a lot of things in our heads along the years – Our life story, emotional attachments, beliefs and other things which can linger in our minds for many years.

Some of them are useless ideas that drag us down considerably. Some are emotional debris from difficult moments in our past. Some are just beliefs which we have attached ourselves to for no apparent justifiable reason. Some others are just self-destructive habits and fears

1. Let go of attachments: According to Buddhist Philosophy, attachment is one of the roots of all suffering. I can’t agree more. We attach ourselves to all sorts of things even the most self-slapping stupid notions in the universe. Are you attached to something? How much are you attached? Is it keeping you back from something? Is it making you suffer? Look at it straight through – break the illusion. Know that every attachment can be detached.

2. Let go of guilt: Guilt has absolutely no function whatsoever. Think about it – what could guilt possibly resolve? It just holds you imprisoned to self-mortification and sorrow.

3. Let go of Negative thinking: Pessimistic thoughts and negative attitudes keep you locked in a dark aura that permeates in everything you do. It’s a dangerous line to follow. Know that thoughts influence the world around us. Enough said

4. Let go of self-criticism: Many times we are our biggest pain in the neck. We criticize ourselves with the best of intentions but then go over the acceptable limit. Criticism then turns to disempowering messages. Let go of it and be kind and gentle to yourself.

5. Let go of prejudice: Prejudice keeps you bitter and resentful. It restricts your opportunities to connect meaningfully with others.

6. Let go of compulsive thinking: Do you keep on doing something just because you feel you have to do it without any apparent reason? It’s time to honestly reflect on its usefulness and its side-effects.

7. Let go of the need for others’ approval: We often tend to seek approval by others. This is an attention-seeking behaviour and one which threatens our self-confidence and authenticity.

8. Let go of limiting beliefs: Most of our limits are self-imposed. Life doesn’t have defined limits. Our beliefs do. Learn to identify those beliefs which narrow down your possibilities for action and let go of them.

9. Let go of grudges: Let me put it this way – grudges are bad for your heart. Keep them long enough or numerous enough and your health will eventually suffer. Research is showing the relationship between heart disease and emotions such as anger and grudges.

10. Let go of the “I’ll do it tomorrow” attitude: This is a delaying tactic of your subconscious saboteur trying to keep you from accomplishing important tasks. Try to be aware of it when you think it and consciously push yourself to do at least the first part of it. Naturally you will then continue the whole task because the hard part is only the beginning.

11. Let go of anxious thoughts: These are born out of our fear of the unknown and uncertainty about the future. The thought that something unpleasant may happen is only an unreal thought we have created ourselves. Ask yourself: “Is this thought based on real evidence?”

12. Let go of past heartbreaks: A heartbreak can take quite a long time to heal. Your heart is locked as your mind keeps on hovering over the same thought. The thing to realize is that in heartbreaks it is not the loss that make you suffer but the idea you create in your heads about that loss.

13. Let go of bad memories: Sometimes we remember unpleasant things that stir up some sad feelings in us. Bad memories make you relive those sad moments in the present. Keep them where they are – in the past.

14. Let go of useless things: We also attach ourselves to things of all sort. Sometimes we clutter our life with useless objects. Let go of them and simplify your working and living environment.

15. Let go of bad company: If there are people around you that are insincere, harbour envy, are highly pessimistic or disempowering, keep away from them.

16. Let go of the idea that you are a product of your past: One very common mistake we fall into is the belief that we are determined by our past experiences. This limits our view on future possibilities since we are stuck in believing that the future can only be more of the same as our past.

17. Let go of identifying yourself with your job/role: This is one of the risks of modern day life. Since roles are always becoming more specialized we think that we are part of our roles. This makes us lose perspective of our true nature.

18. Let go of counterproductive habits: These are the repetitive patterns of behavior that obstruct or distract you from constructive and productive behavior. They can be anything from watching too much TV and overeating to self-destructive behavior such as drug abuse.

19. Let go of taking things too personally: Very often we are disturbed emotionally because we interpret people’s words and actions from a very subjective perspective. When we take things personally we get irritated, hurt and disappointed. When you look at life from a more detached and objective point of view, we stay emotionally balanced and focused on our priorities.

20. Let go of the ticking clock: Time is one of our biggest sources of stress. Well, not time really but our perception of it. Sometimes we are enslaved by the concept of time even in our moments of leisure. This has devoured a lot of our genuine freedom and space. Learning to spend moments without the constant awareness of time can be liberating and finally productive.